reneeencines:

(stephanielustina)

I feel so isolated. Whenever I look around the classrooms or anything I always see other kids talk to their like “close” friend talking about he said, she said, they did this and that, her and him, like, life, and so on. Secrets, gossip, anything basically. You know, what best friends talk about. Okay, I’m not saying I’m a loner or anything, I do have friends to talk to and such. But like we don’t have that “close” relationship. It’s the “oh we’re in the same class, someone I can talk to.” I basically lost that closeness with a whole bunch of my friends though. Right now, my life is partially a secret from everyone. I’m not doing anything bad or anything. It’s all just complications. Even if someone asked me, I’d probably ‘not tell the whole truth’ because it just takes a while to build up that trust. I can never just trust someone right off the bat. Because for some reason everyone just happens to know everyones bussiness now and days. I want that friend that I can talk to about anything. No judgement, no lies, just legit talks, and can keep it so themselves. I have a couple friends I can talk to but when do I even see or talk to them? Like a couple times a month if I’m lucky. I honestly don’t know where I’m going with this … But it was just a though.

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